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Saturday, March 6th, 2010
8:12 am

2envy

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Friday, March 5th, 2010
2:43 pm - Lunch...

goodbyemrblue
My munchies got the better of me..

Had a 30g packet of chips... So that will count as lunch - 160calories

On 371 calories so far today :)

I want to stay under 500 today, but I'm going out tonight so I'll probably drink the calories...

What's everyone doing tonight ? :) x

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11:24 am

goodbyemrblue
Breakfast: 160 calories

SO much better than yesterday :)

xxx Sam

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Thursday, March 4th, 2010
8:35 pm - Gym

goodbyemrblue
Burned 681 calories :)

I've said it before and I'll say it again I LOVE RUNNING <3

I'm actually pretty shocked that I can run what with my lovely box-a-day habit :/

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6:27 pm

goodbyemrblue
Ate some grapes.. 11 calories left.. What the hell am I gonna do with 11 calories?
I'm desperate to find something I can eat that's 11 calories because I'm so scared I lose control and binge later on :(

Off to gym now lovies!

xxx Sam

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3:33 pm - Again!

goodbyemrblue
I ate 411 calories for lunch :(.... The fuuuuck is going on with me today?

Altogether I'm on 861 calories today.. So I have 39 calories left to last me the next 10 hours that I'm awake. I don't want to eat fruit because of the high sugar content, but I really, really don't want to binge later! Any suggestions?

I want to work my fat ass to pieces at gym today! BUT... My friend's coming over in an hour to drop off some weed that I gave him money for yesterday.. Argh, I haven't smoked in so long, I know as soon as I get it I'll smoke a bong, then get the munchies, then be too lazy to go to gym.

NO... I will go to gym, even if I'm stoned and half asleep. I will crawl on the effing treadmill if I have to.

Wish me luck, today is not going well at all for me.. Hope everything's sunny on your side ladies!

xxx Sam

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11:14 pm - Cheers to goodbyemrblue

2envy

Hey girls,
How you all doing? I've been having a good couple of days. I realised I cannot live on 300cals because I just can't concentrate in class or do my homework, and I'm in year 12 and I really want to get into Law. So I decided to eat 800cals, it's working good because I haven't been binging and it gives me enough energy to finish all my work. :)
Okay, so here's what I eat today :)

9:30 - Breakfast
- yogurt + 250mls water 66CALS

11:00 - Recess
- apple + small piece of boiled fish 250mls water 180CALS

4:00 - Lunch
- lean chicken and salad sandwich 350CALS

+ 200CALS OF JILAPEES (I shouldn't have but, it gave me a sugar high.) 

 

TOTAL - 796CALS (Just scraped through :)

2hrs run/walk - anyone know how many cals that burned
I
I don't really feel guilty but the sugar high, because I burnt it off with running which I hate because it's so bad for you're knee.
Anyway, I have a Modern History speech on Russia tomorrow and it's like worth 20% of my school exam marks so wish me luck.

hope you're all doing well :)
cheers to goodbyemrblue for posting like ten times? :) haha.. and your comment on "catering to all countries(something like that)" i don't know why but it made my day :) thank you.
stay strong girls :)

xox Clara


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10:55 am - Ahem.. Me Again :D

goodbyemrblue
I don't know if it's the different time zones or if I'm just on here a lot, it looks like I'm post whoring but I haven't posted in 10 hours ha!

Anyway...

Breakfast: 450 calories
Great, just great. Half my daily calories in one meal. Wonderful, Sam.

Burned 123 calories walking for 20 minutes.

Argh! I'm so mad at myself for breakfast.. WHO THE HELL EATS 450 CALORIES FOR BREAKFAST?!

Disgusting pig I am.

Hope you beauties are having/will have/have had a great day/night (I cater to all time-zones)

xxx Sam

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Wednesday, March 3rd, 2010
11:22 pm - Friends...

goodbyemrblue
My first friend who I spoke a lot about dieting with was when I was 14. We were always trying diets and going to gym, but obviously it turned into competition. It became all we spoke about. We'd go out and she'd get a vodka and coke, and I'd one-up her by getting a straight vodka and glass of water. Things like that. We both developed EDs during that time. Eventually the strain of always competing broke our friendship. Neither of us admitted it was the reason, but I knew it and I'm sure she did too.

Now, I'm doing the same with my current best friend.

We usually go to gym together, but for the past two weeks she's been lacking - she hasn't come once. I'm not gonna lie - it makes me smile to think that I'll lose weight quicker than her. We went out for dinner the other night, and over her huge plate of full-fat chicken pasta with cheese she told me she's afraid that she's obsessing over her weight too much, that it's all she thinks about.

I was like bitch please, I'm sitting here with a salad and water (one-upped again hah) and I go to gym for an hour and a half every day no matter what and you sit there telling me that  you're the one obsessed with your weight?

I love her so, so much but I can't help having all these ugly thoughts about her. I hope she gets fat. I'm not gonna see her for 2 weeks and I want her to get back and see me and actually think I'm sick because I'm so skinny. I want her to be so jealous she cries.

I hate myself for thinking this way about her, but I just can't stop these thoughts :(

(Sorry about randomly bolded words - I thought I'd add a bit of emphasis here and there)

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Tuesday, March 2nd, 2010
7:51 pm

cm71382
I decided to start at the bottom and work my self up with one solid rule at a time.

Most important rule: Don't let any food touch your lips during daylight.

So I either wait all day to get home and eat (by that time ive been hungry all day and lost some weight) or get up super early in the morning to eat

it's working a very well. It clicks, you know, in my brain. It fits me like a perfectly worn pair of jeans.

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7:39 pm - Post whoring :)

goodbyemrblue
Today I ate 877
Burned 780

I'm happy with it.. As long as I'm under 900cals per day

I found a website where you enter your height, weight, calories you eat and activity level, and it tells you how much you'll weigh on certain dates. If I stick 900cals, I'll be at my ultimate goal weight by the 4th of May.. According to the rules, I'm not allowed to post links to other diet websites, so if you wanna know the site send me a PM :)

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3:23 pm

goodbyemrblue
According to mydailyplate, I need to eat 1 200cals per day to lose 2lbs per week
So far I've eaten 597
I've burned 112 from walking
I'm going to gym in a couple of hours

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1:53 pm - Hello ladies!

goodbyemrblue
I'm new to this community :)

I haven't been on LJ in ages, and when I came back on today I couldn't find the ana community I posted to regularly, I think it was deleted..

I guess I should say a bit about me!

I'm Sam, I'm 18 and I've been battling with Ana and Mia since I was 13. I've been to so many therapists over the years after my mum found out about my bulimia. I've got in under a certain amount of control now, I used to purge up to 7 times a day, but now I purge only on occasion when I've binged badly, which hasn't been often lately. Thank God.

What started my obsession with my weight ? My parents. Even when I was 11, and weighed 40kgs (pretty skinny for my height at that time), my parents would call me fat. While I was in therapy my mom admitted she called me fat in order to try scare me stop me from becoming fat because my grandparents on my father's side are grossly overweight. Well, thanks mom. Every single day for the past 8 years, I've hated how I've looked. For the past 8 years, the happiest moments are when I step on a scale and see that I've lost weight. For the past 8 years, I go into a spiral of personal hell every time I gain weight. Really, thanks mom.

Even now, after they know how much I've struggled, and how mentally and physically sick I've become, they still give me "looks" when they think I'm eating too much. My father has even said in front of friends and boyfriends, "Sam, you're just too fat, you need to stop eating". He humiliates me every chance he gets. They both do.

I've gone through periods of drug use over the years, but never to the point where I became addicted and had to get my parents involved. The most weight I've ever lost was while I was going through a bad time and doing a lot of coke, I lost 30kgs (60lbs) and weighed under 45kgs (90lbs). My parents didn't even notice the bags under my eyes, or the fact that I'd shake uncontrollably every morning, all they paid attention to was how much weight I lost and how they were so happy they didn't have a fat daughter anymore.

I'm too embarrassed to post my weight, but I want to lose 20kgs (about 40lbs)

Thanks to anyone who took the time to read this!

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12:49 am

kassie_thin10
hey girlies fort id rite im here with ma friend :) kinda bored :).
my nan made me eat KFC today i was so totally bombed :( so i fort id bindge but unfortunately couldnt get rid of it...so im on a water detox for the next 2 days.
any1 here around 5ft 8 and has a goal weight so i can stay on track it would mean alot thnxs xxx

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Monday, March 1st, 2010
6:17 pm - gay

wishiwasthin0
i am a recovering anorexic and i think i might be a lesbian.

i was wondering if there r other girls out there like me, struggling with their sexuality.

i'm just soooo confused and stressed about this whole thing.

please help.

current mood: anxious

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12:02 pm

cm71382
I need to talk to someone who knows whole lot about eating disorders I have some questions about what going on in my head? Also, are any of you binge eaters too? Because last night I had a weird binge eating episode that was so unlike how i normally am. I REALLY need to share my feeling one on one with some one who knows eating disorders.

thanks!!

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2:38 pm

kassie_thin10
so today i dont no i fink i ate about 300 calories but im buring half of them of.  i felt so ill i had to eat but hey its all good now :).
went town with my nan and she was eating this mcdonalds that melt so good she kept asking me if i wanted anything but there was a voice in the back of my head going dont eat that your fat and ugly if u eat nothing ull be beautiful and thin so i did as i was told :(
being thin is so hard but well get there girlys just keep going!!.

my goal weight is to see my hip bones clearly and ill be fine just stay strong xx

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Sunday, February 28th, 2010
8:48 pm

cindy_faye
my boyfriend is in bulgaria at the moment and i miss him terribly

at least with him being away i can concentrate on my eating and excersising hes the only one who gets arsey about it.

this week my target is for me to see my shoulder and hip bones a bit more, fat is a parasite that lives on bones, bones are clear white a pure and i only want skin touching them!

xx

peace. health. light and love
cindy-faye

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11:06 am

codenamezoe713
I lost a few lbs this week, then I gained them right back. Ugh. I wish I were thin, but its my own fault that I'm not.

Edit: To motivate myself I'm going to post every 12hrs I make it without eating. I don't want u guys to see me fail. I will be thin!

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4:45 pm

kassie_thin10

HEY GIRLS
oh.kay so to day has gone well :) after my complete epic fail yesterday because i ate way to much i couldnt resist myself its not like this purposly happend but its just taken over me so what can i do.  100 calories for me for the next 2 days lets c how that goes hopefully better than i have been doing xx


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